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tangerines
03:01
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tie me like an animal,
i'll never be comfortable.
pull the sheets over my knees
and peel them off like tangerines
but look at me when you spit the seeds.
baby, maybe i'm lost.
i was sure of myself.
take me from the weak and alone.
i want to be somebody else.
put my head against your chest
so i can count the seconds
it takes for our pulses to match
but don't let it get to me
because this could my cemetery;
what i'd give to never go back.
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2. |
his house
03:44
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if you stand still and you listen
my heartbeat has a rythm.
if you don't want to know how much i miss him
then just let go, because i'm broken.
watch all these people find mirrors
in anyone that will come near them
but i can't seem to really follow
because my heart belongs to him.
i know i need time, i know it.
i hope whoever she is,
she sees beyond the way you speak.
i hope she makes you feel whole
and has you grabbing at the sheets.
i hope i'm replaces by the whole vast sky
as it takes in the bombs that go off in a town nearby
and i hope that it reminds you of me
and i how i destroyed everything.
all i think about is his house
and the way the words would come out of his mouth.
all i think about is his house
and the way the world felt with him around.
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3. |
all things still
03:12
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i know there is light in you.
i saw it one afternoon
when we sat up on that hill
and you said i made all things still.
give me time, show me love is safe.
give me time to forget your name
and replace all the things you said
that repeat endless through my head.
i know, i know it hurts
but to think i'd stick around is absurd.
i'm a girl with all these dreams
and if you gave me a match,
you'd expect a flame.
so, here's the fire that ends up again.
and i hope the whole world gets covered in the ashes.
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4. |
you were my world
02:46
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i’ll take out the trash
and i’ll never look back
i’ll burn the backs
of both my hands
i’ll never look back,
take out the trash
and i’ll burn the backs
of both my hands
you’ll never know
it hurt this bad
when i’m alone
fill the sink with blood
and you’ll never know
about my hands
you’ll never know
because you’ll never hold
them again.
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5. |
stay instead
02:45
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lay in bed and say that you’ll miss me
and to stay instead and not let you go.
i’ve lost my head to all that’s around me
so, sink the anchor and tie the ropes.
i’m standing in front of you
and you don’t know what you’re about to lose.
find it in you to run me the mile
and call me up when you’ve found the strength
because you don’t know what it’s like to live like this
to have such shaking arms and legs
and hating myself for waiting.
i’m standing in front of you
and you don’t know what you’re about to lose.
so lay in bed and say that you’ll miss me
and to stay instead and not let you go.
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6. |
manhattan
02:43
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i’ll live these days
with my head between my legs
and my arms wrapped tightly
around my thinning body
because i loved you more
than a single breath of song
and i’m not quite sure
where it is that we went so fucking wrong.
forgiveness was a flip of a switch
at the end of the hall.
you never had the guts for it
instead you projected the fault
onto me and i ran from it all.
you could never admit that i was better than this.
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7. |
your hands
03:37
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we can leave it alone
inside our heads.
we’ve traveled these roads
and we know where they’re headed.
you should see my eyes
when you say those things
so late at night.
and we become ghosts,
people we don’t know.
with scars that don’t show.
but I live somewhere between
your mouth and your heaving chest.
it’s the only place
I am happily worthless.
it’s four in the morning,
in the back of my car,
it’s the first warning
that i live somewhere between
your mouth and your heaving chest
the only place i feel happy worthless
it’s where i rest my head
and hope for the best.
is it even worth it?
why’d your hands shake
when you told me that
that there was nothing to say,
that you weren’t holding back?
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8. |
california
02:36
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it was fall before you ever knew it was love
we had never known love like this
and we didn't know how to go about it
and not lose touch of our youth
but i guess we had to.
so, i can call
and hear the sound of the wind from the city you live in
breaking up this conversation.
will you please just come home because you lied
and said there was no one that night
but i knew better because i held onto
the warm weather of home
in california.
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9. |
high waters
04:12
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let us speak until our bodies become
cold and weak with the winter
i’ll stop running and i’ll stop crying about my brother
it’s just that i try so hard not to be like him and give up in high waters
i wonder if we’ll ever admit that two broken people cannot fix this
i wonder if we’ll ever admit that two broken people is all this is
i try so hard not to be like him and give up in high waters
i don’t know why we build these lives without each other
i did my part
but you broke both our hearts
because there were car rides, there were all-night calls…
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10. |
mother
02:50
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you want to bring up such a good boy
but you can’t stand around here anymore.
so, you leave him to his own devices
and who you’ll be is not going to like it.
pressed against your beaten lips,
you forget his name with every sip
because you fucked him up with your surprises
and gave him a whole brand new mindset.
there’s no shame in wanting to die.
it’s what you get when you leave
what you love behind.
if your heart could be pieced to parts,
half is what is and half is what was,
i’d sit in the middle of what fell apart
and piece it back together until mine gave up.
so, i’ll be the fill, the call home,
the reason you never feel alone.
i’ll be the moon at night
and the sun will bleed
right through me.
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11. |
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my chest doesn’t rest
i can’t breath a normal breath
so i keep
myself alone;
i close all the windows
and ignore the phone.
i can’t sleep without you here
whispering words into my ear
because i felt alive
when you were my night
and your hands were pressed
against my thighs.
that broken part of your heart
is the empty space in mine.
i will write about you for the rest of my life.
i will keep you alive in every line.
i will keep you alive in every line.
i will keep you alive in every line.
i will keep you alive in every line.
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colina Carmel, California
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